This week was a crazy week. I started my first PAGE assignment at NBCUniversal, SYFY Press. Graduate School is coming to a end. I can’t believe that I am about to finish my first year of Grad School at Sarah Lawrence. It has been hard managing grad school and a full-time job as well as train for a half-marathon. Running has been an awesome outlet for me to relieve stress.
I have never been good at communicating. I often shut myself off. I feel like I didn’t say all that I wanted to say in this video. Honestly, I do not know how to say how I feel because I never had to. Often times, I focus my energy on other people and their happiness. Therefore, my emotions get buried under other people’s emotions and I’m stuck fighting for air. I attempted to tell my story in the video but I’ll admit… I did a poor job.
I grew up in a Southern unconventional household and stability was a word unknown to me (as I’m sure to many of you too… nobody really has stability anymore). I witnessed my mother getting beat on a kitchen floor by my father. I remember not being able to take standardized test because my stepfather had beaten me so badly in 2nd grade. I remember his face before he died. The way he looked at me. I knew what evil meant. These are only snapshots of my experiences. Please share yours with me, I promise I will listen. I tell you this because this is the first time I am saying it out loud. I am confronting my past as way to help me achieve self-acceptance- whether emotionally, physically, or mentally.
I believe that everything that you do is interwoven and seamlessly interconnected. My past affects my relationships with men- my need to overeat- therefore, gain weight- and lose myself in the process.
I wish I could have said all of this in the video. But, I promise I am trying:
Below are my running schedules from Week 5- 6. Just so you can implement all or parts of the schedule.
Tuesday: Run 4 min, walk 1 min (10 times)
Wednesday: Run 5 min, walk 1 min (9 times)
Saturday: Run 4 Min, walk 1 min (15 times)
Sunday: Run 5 min, walk 1 min (7 times)
Tuesday: Run 6 min, walk 1 (6 times)
Wednesday: Run 5 min, walk 1 min (7 times)
Thursday: Spin Class
Saturday: Run 5 min, walk 1 min (15 times)
Sunday: Run 5 min, walk 1 min (6 times)
Email me @email@example.com, if you want to share ideas or stories.